Have you ever taken a personality test? I have. Many times. I always score very highly as an extrovert. Which isn’t particularly surprising. I’m an outgoing, loud, obnoxious, boisterous, larger than life, center of attention, life of the party kid of guy. I do very well in settings where I am in front of people. I like to be in front of large groups of people. I like to be in charge. I like to lead. I like to administrate and tell others what to do. I have done very well in jobs that have allowed the freedom to think outside of the box and troubleshoot my own answers and then implement them.
Having said all that, there is still a piece of me that wants to be left alone to sit by myself without another soul anywhere in sight. I like my alone time. I’m at camp this week as the missionary speaking about h2o church and I realize that I’m good to be ‘on’ an in front of people for about 3 days. After that, I need to detox to decompress and relax away from everyone. This is hard when you are a dad… and you’ve brought 66% of your kids with you to camp.
Sometimes I chastise myself for being like this, telling myself I should be able to be in front people constantly. Then I think about how Jesus frequently retreated away by himself. I feel like the Gospel of Mark catches this about Jesus. In Mark 1:35 we read, In the early morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house, and went away to a secluded place, and was praying there. Jesus got up and went to be alone. He started his day with time to himself (in relationship with God) so that he could give himself to others. Not that I am Jesus, but maybe it is ok to need time to myself.
I have taken enough time to myself and must rejoin the masses.