I will never forget the first time I saw the movie the Matrix. In the movie is a scene I will never forget seeing for the first time either. At one point, Morpheus takes Neo to see the Oracle. Over the door in the kitchen at the Oracle’s apartment is a plaque with the saying temet nosce which they rendered Know Thyself. If you remember this movie, Neo goes to the Oracle because Morpheus believes that he is the ‘one’ who is going to save mankind from the machines. Allegedly the Oracle ‘knows enough’ and gives you a word according to the gifts that have been given to you. So as Neo is in the conversation with her about whether he is the ‘one’ or not the Oracle tells him: “I’m going to let you in on a little secret…Being the One is just like being in love. No one can tell you you’re in love, you just know it. Through and through. Balls to bones.” I will never forget this because like Neo who ultimately is the ‘one’, he allows his own fears and disbelief in himself and something bigger than himself to allow him to wander of the path to fulfilling what his purpose is.
Another aspect of being in the Diary of God is knowing yourself and knowing what your purpose is. This is much easier said than done. In order to know yourself you have to know a little about God. This is important because it is God who made us and in order to get a handle on what we are made for, we have to know a little more about the one who created us or our creator. I was reading an article from Psychology Today earlier on this subject and it tends to be a hot topic in the world today as people are trying to find themselves and find out who they really are. Sometimes it is easy to know who we are and other times it is very tough to be able to land on what we are made for and what our purpose in life is. I have spent many hours thinking, pondering and arguing about what my purpose is.
In the mental health community there is much talk about being fully aware of ourselves and knowing who we are and being grounded. This is a similar concept to the idea of knowing thyself. The idea is that if we know ourselves and are fully aware of who we are as individuals and as therapists the better we are going to be able to relate to and help other people work through whatever is ailing them.
In all honesty this journey of trying to find out who you are and what you are here for is hard. It is tough because sometimes it causes you to challenge ideas and values that you once held so tightly. Sometimes we are forced to think outside of our selfishness and look for other greater good that is to be put before our desires and wants. We often times will look inside of ourselves and find stuff we don’t like… stuff that is downright disgusting and scary. This also makes the journey hard.
I find that I hate myself most when I read some of the passages of Scripture that tell me that out of the overflow of my heart my mouth speaks… this is hard to swallow considering some of the things that has come out of my mouth. In a circumstance like this knowing who I am on the inside is pretty important. I want to know if who I am reflects what I say or did I just have a weak moment and slip in my verbage?
Before we are able to live up to what God wants from us, we have to figure out what he wants from us. Again, easier said than done. Being in the Diary of God means that we are going to have to look inside ourselves at the deepest recesses that we hope no one ever sees in order to determine who we are and where we are going. Until we “thine own-self you must know” we will never be able to live fully for God… that is why knowing thyself is being in the Diary of God.